reluctantly woke up at 1045 when they came. they, referring to the people who are installing new air conditioners for us, reached by 11. snorts. super tired coz i slept at only 330 yesterday night, or rather today morning after playing with my sister's iPhone games and watching a tv show.

thinking about that tv show reminds me of the conversation that me and xiao hong had on thursday. something about someone's ambition as a forensic. hmm.

back to today, back to reality, back to zhuang yi.

lunched, mum's shows, second round of food, iPhone games, DS games.

they left and we started WORK.
firstly, we prepared the water for mopping the floor.
while mum was sweeping up the debris, i moved everything to my study room. adding onto the weight, was my backbone problem which seemed to return to find me!
secondly, i started to vacuum the floor. long hair is really a hindrance and a nuisance.
thirdly, i mopped the floor and mum removed the bedsheets and stuff coz they are really really dirty and dusty.
if you think it is over, definitely not. we had to mop the floor a second round, move the things back and wait for the floor to be dry.

it is as if chinese new year is nearing and we are doing spring cleaning! x= i even wanted to ask my mum to switch on some CNY songs to get ourselves in the mood. but, CNY is in 2.5 months' time and i was afraid that our neighbours might think that we are crazy, so i did not even try asking. hahaha.


DINNER! and that should mark the end of super SHAGgish today?


FAOW. tml. 1230. ECP visitor centre. my type of casual attire.
lot more shows on my playlist yet to be played! x=


30th: chalet.
1st: chalet. fang yu, tracy and crystal. ATCD 1.
2nd: chalet.
3rd: chalet. interview. ATCD 2.
4th: chalet. wedding dinner.
5th: NRC.
6th - 9th: xiao hong back! cruise.
10th: ATCD 5.
11th: ATCD 6. ATC FB.
12th: NCOC AP. ATC FB.
13th: ATC FB.
14th - 17th: CIBTC ATC.
18th: ICR. NCOC.
19th: IC. tracy's birthday. NCOC.
20th: NCOC.
24th: CIP (1000 - 1200)
25th: christmas!
26th: training.
28th: training.
30th: training.

which means, i only have six days free, EXCLUDING CVD meetings and OGL trainings IF i get in. life is a bit of a chore huh. and with this length of hair, annoying.

19/11: blah blah blah.

i managed to clear some of my outstanding work before going off for ATC. my momentum is slowing down and i cannot let this carry on!


20 - 22/11: area 9 ATC.

first time as an external. first time feeling so useless. first time ever so high during campfire. first time being so slack.


22/11: grandmother's birthday celebration.

came back from ubin, back home, bathed, packed and went over to grandparents' house for dinner and celebration. woah. shag shag shag. lost my appetite and momentum of eating and went to my uncle's room to watcht he online show that i have missed for almost a week.

shag shag shag. almost fell off my uncle's lorry when i was in my carpark. in the position as if i was abseiling. -,- slept almost immediately after i reached home!


23/11: OSIM OSIM.

worse this time round as i have not recovered from my lack of sleep. x= only slept for 8 hours during the camp. slept earlier and had 8 hours of rest on sunday night BUT still not enough. x= usually need to sleep for 17 hours on sundays, let alone after a training camp. x=

while waiting for the principal dialogue session, i was playing my DS before shawn finished his book and wanted to play. next, i was chatting with ian dan. OMG. we were chatting so happily about our idol JAY CHOU and our fates. hahaha! like what would we do if If IF we cannot make it to the uni and also if we were to be withdrawn this year.

well well well, the scenarios are so not going to happen coz we will be the top of the cohort next year instead of the opposite! =D blah blah blah. i realized i could have left my ring back at KFC but i totally ignored it. went to buy sweets and back to college for the dialogue session. slept super early again coz i was still tired. x=


24/11: another shag day.

i just cannot sit still in chemistry lecture. it is quite boring, i am not quite interested, i am so tired, i might just fall asleep. x=

she saw what she should not. i received at least five strong solid slaps on my left shoulder, my ring and reprimanding. however, i am unwilling to go through that again. if i was to be tempted, i would have crossed over to the dark side earlier everytime i am with them. really.


25/11: cca day.

and i wonder why i do not have training. -,-

million of work due this week!
- admin backup proposal
- CCA write up
- open house booth plan
- CCA planning template
- surFIVErace registration
- AVD T&D stuff
- contacts to be documented


26/11: last day of lessons!

maybe my brain was already tuned to the holiday mood that i slept for 30 minutes during math tutorial. torturous! two hours of lesson with zero motivation sia!

i welcome with both my hands wide open for the holidays!


27/11: happy birthday chuan jing!

preparation for course and start of holidays (and my misery).

13/11: friday the thirteenth! =D

i was supposed to watch both the friday the thirteenth shows but i was too busy. ): preparation for tml and realized i have a lot of things that i need to possess but not. x= last minute preparation kills. x=


14/11- 15/11: IPC ATC.

mind over body.
stretch our potential.
to achieve more and beyond.
what is our mission and vision.

happened to find out that brandon lives a road across from my block. now i have a friend who goes the same way home as me. hahaha! can also share the cab if needed. =D


16/11: OSIM.

release of results at 1530 in the hall. i think i only got mine at 1600? coz some people enjoy the attention at the front, holding the mike and ranting nonstop. i only attained my aim for econ result which is a C.

GP C
CH E
MA C
EC C
HT E (8 and 18)

ranking point of 70 out of 100 (inclusive of PW and MT). quite lousy and a bit far from my aim of at least 90? x=


past were the days whereby chemistry exams were handwriting practices for me. past were the days whereby i was still confident of myself. past were the days whereby i could easily summon my courage.


17/11: moodless to push on. x=

results are out but still, i need time to get over them. x= i need to pick up my mood and also to gather my studying enthusiasm. well well well. booked for already 20 out of 43 days in the holidays. hmm. i shall plan for the other 23 days for productive activities soon!


18/11: declarations, 1, 2, 3!

not in ms aminah's lecture group anymore. THE FEELING AND THE EXPERIENCE ARE TOTALLY HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE, VEGETABLE. the lecturer wastes time on his sarcasm, wastes time on the lecture group by waiting for replies and also asking questions which are irrelevant. not that i am already used to ms aminah's lecture style, but the three lecturers i had last year, did not behave like that. -,-

after lessons, i went to find char and went off with them to mac and had my tea time and their dinner. hahaha. coz i had lunch and going to have dinner at home thus tea time.

continuing with my online shows. plus i realized i have a lot of things not done! like lessonplan, course attendance, ATC stuff, AVD D4 stuff and NCOC. wonderful.

i can't live without you.
i can't live without you.
i can't live without you!
i can't live...

when love ends, it may not be coupled with aftermath hatred.
but before love ends, utter disappointment must have been felt.

were those tears of sadness or fatigue?
perhaps, i really did cry myself asleep.


09/11: first day of the 2nd week of lessons!

cannot wait for the "first" to become "last" and "2nd" to become "4th". ):

lessons lor. math, chem and econ. that is all. well. these two weeks (previous and this) are for h2s while next two will be for all four content subjects. in simpler terms, including the h1. for those who are taking four h2s, wait, do you think i care about them? joke!


okay! on second thoughts, not really. how i wish time will pause here forever. not really now but maybe weeks ago? it would be great, really.


10/11: blah blah blah.

i always thought that one's belongings should be what the person likes. i guess time has moved on and mindsets have changed. now it also concerns the people around us, whether they are comfortable with seeing you and your things (maybe your watch). mindsets have changed, i have once again lost myself. i am starting to get used to being an adaptor-- everyone is comfortable with and am accomodating to every single one. perhaps i am trained to be one? perhaps i am not that strong mentally to withstand the advancement in life. well. what is more, since i have already lost the zhuang yi which i started out with.


11/11: SHAG.

math. hospital. econ. chem. OP practices. hospital. home.


bu wen bu wen. anyway, you are not obliged to.


12/11: happy birthday ms soh! =D

prayed to uncle aik at choa chu kang.
had lunch at grandparents' house.
fetched mum from the hospital.


what are holding me back? my guts are. course is. the dinner is. my emotions are. EXCUSES. you are the one who is holding me back, making me doubt myself, not doing what i should.


movie with hong yu and shawn, "my girlfriend is an agent", ang mo kio, 1520. it is super funny. totally worth the money spent. anyway, i never thought it was crap or nonsense.


who has changed?
who is changing? ):



results are going to be out on monday, 1500, in the hall. i wonder what is the big deal. since last year it is in the classroom, with our CTG and CT. maybe too many people are retained. hahaha!

07/11: steamboat dinner!

the moment i reached home, my mum called me from her room. she told me she has bought crabs for steamboat, BUT she is unsure if she bought three or four and she can only see three in the bag. what i concluded is that, she suspects an escape case. x=


after bathing, i walked out of the kitchen and i saw that escapee travelling across my living room. in a shock, i screamed. that may seemed impossible for me to scream, but i did. i shouted mummy, i found the crab! x= it is not everyday that you can see acrab crawling across your living room!


she woke up in a shock and we caught the crab after a bit of effort, like moving the sofa out. she killed the crabs instantly to prevent any more trouble. hahaha. dinner started at 7 when me and my mum decided not to wait for my sister and her boyfriend. and my second round started when they came back at 2130. =D

so full, so full. the screening of chucky 5 (seed of chucky) made me want to have a CHUCKY MARATHON. that day would most probably be on thu after coming back from grandparents' house, unless someone asks me out. ):


08/11: nua sunday!

i woke up earlier than usual today, at 1245, on my own. =D people who know me well, understand that this could be a miracle! usually, i do not wake up on my own on sunday and it would be way after 2pm, only if my mum wakes me.


lunch, online shows, grandparents' house, dinner, home and online shows!

i have just loaded ALL the shows onto the media player. now, i only need to be online, click onto the movie or show and i can watch them!

horror shows like CHUCKY, final destination, scream, scary movie, saw, friday the 13th, qian nv you hun, yin yang lu. these are the part one, part two and so on. for the individual ones, 13b, 609.

for non horror, spiderman, harry potter, hua pi, chi bi, jurassic park, ice age, qian nv you hun, gu ling jing tan 1 and 2. =D lots of entertainment huh.


one week has past. waiting for another week.
one week has passed. waiting for two more weeks. ):